So, it’s been a while right? I’m sure you want to know what’s up, or maybe not, but it’s too late and you’re already reading this, so here goes! So when I first started this blog wanted my blog to be real, honest, funny, and be an inspiration to others and provide hope and confidence. I know my friends and family only want the best for me, but I also know I am NOT a great writer and I make grammatical errors, or two…ok several. I’ve had people send me notes on things that I wrote that needed to be fixed, at first I was happy that my friends and family cared about what I was writing, what I was doing and wanted me to put out my best. As I kept writing, I kept getting these messages, I found myself, well let’s just say I found my Gremlin, and her name is Holly. Holly is this voice inside of me saying, well you’re not good enough to blog, you’ll probably never be good enough, just stop writing, and, well… you get the point. So I’ve kind of stopped.
I just kept feeling as though, it is hard for me to ask for help, so my choice; I am just not going to do it. And that is exactly what has happened. There lies my gremlin, and it has gotten the best of me, and it’s holding me back from offering what I wanted to offer readers to my blog which is honesty and authenticity and openness. I’ve been wrestling with Holly for a few weeks now and it’s time to do something about it. As I teach my own clients is that first step to lessening a gremlins power is to be consciously aware of it. Ask yourself how is it affecting your life? What has to change in order to not allow it to hold you back? Then be aware that the gremlin is a part of your life, and it may always be, but make a choice to either give into it or not allow it to have any power any longer.
I am making this blog short and sweet. Needless to say, I’ve been scared; I’ve been feeling low in confidence, and vulnerable to being judged. BUT, I will continue to write, grammatical errors in all, because it is important to me to show others all of me so that they can do the same in return with me. (I promise to try and proof read harder)